Faded Feelings

Me – staring blankly at my computer screen, listening to a song that is playing on my Spotify.flower daisy T-Shirt

A glimpse of the past suddenly runs through my thoughts and it made me smile and then a tiny giggle. It is so funny how music brings back memories, it made you stop in a moment and savor the feelings of being in the past again, even for a second.

I closed my eyes.

Years has passed and you realized, no matter how painful the past and how strong the feeling was, the music never brings it back, only the memories…

The feelings just faded.

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Faded

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I just lost my job recently, a job I thought would last a lifetime, something I cared for and loved with all my heart. It breaks me into small pieces.

My son, saw me crying silently at my desk.

“Mama, what’s wrong?”

I’m sad. I said.

“No, you cannot be sad”

Why not?

“I love you Mama” and he showered me with kisses.

How lovely and sweet.

He is right, I can’t be sad. I have him.

So.. To light up my moment and get this heaviness out of my chest.

I said, “I want to go to the moon, would you like to come?”

“Mama, we cannot go to the Moon!”

Why not? I could ride a bike to fly to the moon!

Irritated now and almost a shout “Nooo…. You can’t ride a bike to the moon, it can’t fly and the moon is too far. You need a spaceship, we don’t have that. And… and… You need a space suit and you don’t have one. And you can’t leave me here and Tatay (Dad), we need to stick together.”

My son is five years old.

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Plantronics Audio 326 Headset (Black)

So, my headset just got broken (not actually really broken, but it looks old and the cover is slowly coming off and I want a new one).  I am looking for a PC headset for skype where I can set on mute so the other side won’t hear noises in my background.

I look for a headset on Lazada,  my online shopping platform. I actually bought almost all of my gadgets and electronic accessories there and so far, the products always came out as I expected.  You know what the key is, be vigilant, look for the same product listing and choose the one that has good reviews and the ones that are cheaper but of good quality. Don’t buy on impulse or just because the product looks good and shiny. Have a little research skill.

I think I have found the best headset for Skype, it has all the feature that I am looking for, plus it cost only around 895.00

Plantronics Audio 326, I think is a great buy.

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It has a sleek and clean design and it fits your head perfectly. Very comfortable to use and give your crisp audio clarity. It has a superior noise-cancelling microphone enhances speech accuracy while the design ensures you keep tuned into your surroundings. You can easily adjust the volume or mute the microphone with the convenient inline controls and ensures full control over internet calls, music listening, and more.

Pungent…

Today’s one-word prompt is PUNGENT, and it made me remember. Not the pungent odor, but a very aromatic moment.

3 years ago when I first set foot inside our house, I remember the pungent odor of burning onions and garlic and then the aroma of a very spicy food. I remember the smell so vividly that it water’s my mouth while writing this. It came from the apartment next to our door, where an Indian couple with two grown up kids is living. And up until now, every once in a while I smell this very familiar aroma, a mixture of curry powder and coconut milk – I know, she’s cooking it again. And I’d be here tapping on my keyboard, wondering if the taste of the food is as good as how it smells.

My Indian neighbor does not only have a delicious cuisine, they also have this colorful clothing. Every Sunday, I see them wearing their beautiful Sari. I love watching them as they walked graciously, bursting with colors and beautiful accessories.

They fascinated me.

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Back to UpWork and Job Hunt

This is a continuation on my professional career meltdown :-). I am now officially unemployed and in the process of looking for a new job.

UpWork formerly known as oDesk has always been of great help. I registered here like 6 years ago, but never really got the chance to build my reputation on this job bank because, after a few tries, I got a permanent job. Voila!! Six years have passed and here I am: UNEMPLOYED!

So, I went back to UpWork this time and started to make my profile look professional, I changed my Profile photo to make it nicer, I added some Work Experiences and created a portfolio. I change my ‘overview’ details to make it direct to the point and more appealing. You know what? It’s hard to look for a new job this time, I submitted 25 proposals and only got one invitation for an interview. (Help me, Lord).

The struggle is real this time around my friend!

There are thousands of job ads, but there are also millions of job hunters, mostly Asian, who are as good as you or maybe even better but offer their services at a lower rate. Can you compete with Indians? Or Bangladeshi? In terms of hourly or fixed rate?  If you live in the Philippines and you sell your services same rate as Indians or Bangladeshi, you won’t be able to buy a pair of panties, I swear! Everything in this country is expensive, from Tuyo to Salmon. Lahat mataas, panty na lang ang bumababa sa madaling araw.

But, if you are just building your profile and reputation, good reviews are more important than money, so you sell your product as low as 3USD per hour – It can get you by. Don’t give up, the more positive reviews you get, the more clients will notice you. The time will come when you will be able to charge them 10USD per hour, and who knows maybe 25USD per hour after a year. Just keep holding on to your faith.

God will provide!

P.S.:

Anyone looking for Email Handler or Virtual Assistant – here is my UpWork Profile:

http://www.upwork.com/o/profiles/users/_~01bdc564897741404b/

On Job Hunt

So… It has ended!!!

My boss has finally decided to close the company down. He emailed me yesterday that it was our last day and asked for my invoice which I have been delaying since I log in. I hate to think that it was really our last, that we are going to part our ways. We’ve been working together for six years and it’s hard to just leave everything behind and start anew.

We have informed a week ago about the possibility of closing down and I have started hunting for a new job since then. I have actually prepared myself for any emotional and psychological stress, but this sudden change in my daily routine and my professional career still kept me awake at night. You really can’t move on quickly, especially when you spent six years of your life working for a nice company and wonderful people. The rapport you established with your team is something you just can’t throw away and something you just can’t get overnight – this is the sad part of losing one’s job: Starting over again!

I don’t have time for grief. I have to move on and I have moved on easily, I don’t let any negativity in life keep me down. I know that there’s a lot of good things in the future that is waiting for me. And in times like this, I keep holding on my faith, that God will provide, as my brother-in-law always tells us: God will provide!

I’m on Job hunt now. So, if you need a VA or email handler, please count me in. You can check my profile on UpWork:
http://www.upwork.com/o/profiles/users/_~01bdc564897741404b/
or you may contact me via realgrapiks[@]gmail[dot]com

I can provide the following services:
Microsoft Word and Excel and Photoshop
Wordpress
Manage contact lists and customer spreadsheets
Maintain a calendar and set up meetings
Prepare and send out e-mail newsletters
Prepare, collate and ship proposals and meeting materials
Send out requested information to customers
Handle client inquiries by e-mail
Email Management/Filtering
Booking Appointments with clients
Following up with clients/customers (thank you and other reminder emails)
File Management (organizing files using Dropbox)
Database building (updating email or contact list on your CRM)
Research on certain topics
Personal errands (purchasing gifts for loved ones/family members online)
Hotel and Flight Booking
Creating basic reports
Preparing slideshows’ on PowerPoint
Recruitment
Set-up Social Media Accounts (Facebook, twitter, LinkedIn, YouTube, Instagram, Tumbler)
Manage and update social media accounts
Manage your blog
Publish posts on your Blog (as long as you provide the content)
Filter and reply to comments on your blog
Blog commenting (to increase traffic and links to your site)